The plight of writing, drinking, and living with your parents

Due to my unfortunate circumstances in the past 6 months, I am staying at my parents home in the country. I have never lived this far from the city and its an adjustment that takes a long time. At first I can't take my mind off of the choices I recently made, but I feel I have to overcome this situation at a record pace. I have been single for the past 4 months, and I have a feeling it will be that way for a short while. The anticapation of meeting someone soon, excites me. I have been drinking - which means that I have beed drinking by myself. This is not a good sign, therefore I will stay away from the glass for a while. I dont have a job and soon i will walk out to find one. I don't know what to do with my life. Maybe I will take a plane to europe and see the sights. Backpack though Frances country side, stopping at winerys and making the locals laugh at my English. What would it take for me to stop by a small town in the midwest, seeking the things I lack here in California? It might be hard to find something I lack when I am not sure what it is that I lack.