breaking free from the constrains of social sanctions

I am always acting and particapating in the confines of my mind. From the time I was capable of inteligent thought, I confused myself into a juxtaposition far from my peers. 24 years old-- you should have done this, or you shouldnt have done that, all the while trying my hardest to maintain self-trust. I want answers or guidance in this process that encapsulates us all. The process that we all must answer for, consciously or unconsciously, with foresight or hindsight to further misunderstanding. Inconclusive choices are inevitable and move us closer to destruction. From here on, I must give absolution to nobody-- for it is I who answer to only one.