Incomplete Thoughts Concerning Life As I Know It

It’s the indifference between what has been said about love and what I use to feel strongly about, furthers my quest to an absolute in what seems to be fruitless. Definitions, perceptions, and analytical thought processes, have done me nothing in this conflict that has suddenly came across to me not too long ago. Moreover, emotions that have stricken me to feeling one way over another clearly are illogical and only add to my confusion. Therefore, I beckon this question to those that are so inclined to humor me in my ineffectual discourse on incoherent confusion about my lack of inexperience on this subject, what is love? Questions that only lead to more questions, seem to disobey me and what feels like a powerful force leaves me once again asking more questions. Rhetorical questions at best have no affect on my examination of love; however they seem appropriate in utterances of my ignorance. So, if I maybe so forthright in displaying my ignorance of love – must I continue this rant of retarded ness? No, of course not. And if you have read past this part of my pseudo-intellectual blog, I can’t guarantee that I will even come close to a point at all, but I will try.
Love, love, and more love. The Beatles once said “All you need is love”. I feel that this is just a mere paradox, because with or with out love, somehow in the end, you get hurt. Does this mean I don’t believe in love? Most definitely not, however I feel that most people (including myself) fall in to this category of being in love – loving someone who either doesn’t love you or doesn’t know how to love you. When I was younger I held onto a sentiment that “true love” is always mutual. Since then I obviously have changed this thought into one of a more rational idea – one which is still under constant scrutiny by my ever persistent changing maturity. So, yes you can be in love with someone that isn’t in love with you. Unfortunately, I am plagued by this notion of “true love”. When it comes down to it, I think I just need a girlfriend and so that at very least I can suspend my disbelief of love for a short while. Then I will be in love again.